Releasing

I have been uncharacteristically uninspired the last couple of weeks. I think I wrote more when I was injured and further away from the endurance world than I have lately. It reminds me of a line in the movie Wayne's World. Wayne says, "I once thought I had mono for an entire year. Turns out I was just really bored."

Well I am not really bored, far from it, just incredibly busy. Having a new born and dealing with this economy and being a person who is sought after as a problem solver and my day never ends. Since Mae was born I have started waking up at 0430 instead of 0530 so I can still attempt a run and mediation before doing a list of house chores for Mistress before we all leave for the day by 0730. Then, after twelve or thirteen hours, I get home and try to be a father and husband for a few moments and then if I didn't workout, motivate myself for a trainer ride and prep for the next day.

Training and nutrition have suffered. The training more so. It used to be that I couldn't workout. Now that I can, I can't because the baby takes so much more responsibility. It doesn't help that I really have no training goal. I am not racing till 2010 and that ultimately is a good thing. I am hydrating as much as I can but my urine color is up and down. My nutrition is not bad, I could ease up on some of the impulsive eating but the flat out fact is that lack of training at the level I am accustomed to is taking its toll.

Every day is a new day and I have the choice to be more and do more or live life in reverse. Who wants to do that? I don't want, like or appreciate living a life that is a lie, that is not good enough. Like telling myself I don't have the time/energy/desire to do something that is beneficial and healthy for me when I really know I do. It is not enough that I have had a second, third, forth or even more chances to have a good life. So what if it meets your expectations, it may not meet mine.

There's treasure everywhere....but a person still needs to go and look for it.