Splitsville

I sometimes feel like I am about four different people. Maybe more. Its a good thing I am an honest SOB, or I'd have a hard time keeping all my stories together. Not that I am lying about anything, just that....well for example I have no idea if I have announced on CMS that we are expecting a girl.

I don't hide this fact, I just don't recall if I put that information here. I have put it elsewhere. We are going to name her, 'Mae' after my grandmother and her middle name will most likely be Leilani.

But 'splitsville' really is about the different lives that really all of us lead in a day. We are parents, spouses, bosses, employees, volunteers, supporters, athletes, the list goes on. In the end every hat we wear should go on top of the same head, we have the same idealogy, the same core belief and idea of fairness. Every permutation of our daily roles requires a different mindset, a different set of ability's, but not a different person.

There are obvious incongruities. The most mild mannered of women can become the most tenacious of atheletes on a course. Macho, super aggresive men will smile and wave at children behind him in a line. These may be personality traits that we don't exhibit in 95% of our daily life, but they got there somewhere.

I'm told that my grandmother and I were very close. Of a dozen grandkids we had a bond that was different and noticable. She dead when I was about ten and I lost my memory of her in a car accident. So while I am constantly held to a standard I don't remember but was valid nevertheless, I would like to hope that when my daughter is born, I have a bond with her that is special and unique and different than the personality most people see in my day. And it all starts with a name.